Stop you're making me blush
21 May 2009
Edited post :D !Re-read pleaseee !
I don't get along with most people.New blogskin, 1st time doing a brown blogskin :D
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Its Thursday. I should be studying but I'm sick of it. I'm sick of facing people, sick of trying my best to face them with a smile on my face. I don't wish to smile today.
From now on, I am going to be treating people tactfully anyway so it really doesn't matter. Afterall, the only one who you can depend on forever is none other than yourself. I'm learning to be independent.
Time to put on a mask.
As long as I don't harm anybody, its okay. Right? That's what I think.
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P/S: Hate me for all you want. You are so shallow and immature that I have no more opinion of you.Alot people asks me that do someone backstabs them from behind.
I don't know how to reply. That time was Weishan ask me did regina or maomao backstabb-ed her. I told her. Maybe, just maybe.. They did say something. They did not backstab, they comment-ed. Don't blame them. After that, Yufei told alot people that I cannot keep secerts, don't tell him.
I was like.. So irritated.
People ask me, I reply. Also got wrong.
Today regina ask me anyone got say bad things about her.. I don't how to reply her. I just told her. I don't want say about this kind of things, later problems starts. Fights starts. Quarrell starts. Manythings starts.
Every setback makes me stronger.I shall not care so much on backstabbers. Backstabbing blues! :D.
Why should I sad. Everyones happy. But why not me.
After getting backstabbed by so many ex-bestfriends, if I say I am not wary of people, I am lying through my teeth.
Life's like a movie. Sometimes the plot of the story is good, sometimes sucky. Sometimes new characters appear, sometimes less significant ones disappear from the picture. Everyday is a brand new start. You won't know what fate have in store for you. Sometimes you love, sometimes you hate. You can't please everybody all the time. People from all walks of life experienced different things which makes them who they are. Sometimes people are nasty to you, most of the time nice. We are human. We have different emotions and feelings. We use emotions to express our feelings. Sometimes we do it the correct way, sometime we don't.
All these elements made up an important part of the movie. It contributes to making our life story interesting.
Nobody gets away scot-free without having a taste of life.
We are all sinners. We'll just have to learn how to forgive and forget to live in harmony. Why despise others just because of some mistakes they made? We all make mistakes. However severe or however least severe, they are all mistakes.
I don't want drama in my life.
I had enough.
Its time to step out of the scene whereby nasty people talk shit about eachother behind eachother's backs. That's mean. That's not who I want to be.
I've tried to blend into the world once. Now, I am accepting the fact that I do not blend well with the rest of the world. At least the "world" around me. I'm not saying that I'm nice or whatever. Its just that they are too mean for me to handle. I cannot take how everyone can treat it as nothing. Sometimes, I feel like I'm all alone.
Why can't they love me for who I am and forget who I've been?
After all, I am only human.
Today at school, I was like very tired. Mrs sally tan say I come school to have girlf. I tell you arh. I'm not. I want to study. But I just can't listen in class. She changes my place and I sat alone.
After school, so bored.
Went to have some fun with maomao, shawn, regina & Sharon.
Went to a big drain near shawn's house. Fishing! hehehes!
Shawn caught a fish but his net drop down to the big drain.
I wanted to go help him get secertly. Regina tags along. So be it :D
They found out. They stopped me but I have to help my friend.
My leg.. Half of my nail is gone.
They scare my leg will infect. I don't care.
I went down bravely. Barefooted :D
Regina, shawn and sharon didn't dared to come down. After much persuition from me and maomao.
They came down.
Regina, with slippers that suppose I should wear cus I injured. Shawn and sharon did not wear anything.
They did not dare to come over, while I walked far.
I came back holding them and came across the fish thing.
I hold regina and sharon. Shawn came to hold me. He scare! :D
Fishes was biting my injure part. It was so painful.. But I didn't shout. Because if I shout, 3 of my friends would fall down as the floor was oily. Eww.
I think in my heart. One person pain is better than four people.
So I kept in my heart that I was pain. Maomao was ontop of the drain and guide us.
The drain was big siaa. Omqesh!
I saw shawn's net. I went to get. While 3 of them watch ==
I almost fall, regina and sharon held my hand near the elbow. Glad they know how to pay back :D
Shawn stood still, didn't move. Too scare I think. I dun wan people laugh at him. He said he very daring. But to me everyone will feel scare. Don't laugh uhs! ><
Then we walk back to the drain.
Shawn was like hugging regina and holding her when we going up the drain.
I almost fell, sharon held my hand. Then maomao say:"Orhor. Hold hand!"
I pust her hand away, she say nevermind dun care and then held my hand again.
They treated me as friend. I'm glad..
They we sat there. My leg was bleeding. I did tell no one. So no one knows. I'm glad. I dun wan them to worry.
The fishes were so pitiful.
Then we went for some catchings! Block catchings.
Sharon was the catcher twice. I was not even once! :P
Hahas, I had alot of fun with my friends.
Went bedok resovior<--not sure of the spelling. Sorriees!
With huishi and jiachun.
We jogged 4.8 km, my record :D
Then we took 10 minutes resting.
I went near to the pond. Huishi pushed me.
I feel and hit my head abit. Head not pain but my leg's nail was gone! D:
She said sorry.. She help me paste the plaster.
See lah, because of me everyone felt unhappy. Sorry!
And went handphone was spoil because when she push me to the pond. My handphone was in my pocket ><
Now cannot press and make music == ROAR!
After my examinations marking.
My results were comfirmed.
I didn't did well D:
I got average for everything.
My history got 42/50 Grading: A
I'm so damn happy! :DD!
But after that short happying.
I found out that my chinese only got 73.5/90 Grading: A
I'm not happy about that I got 78.5/90 last time! D:
My mathematics.. Still fail after alot of studying.
I did study for exam lorh! But only maths. D:
I passed my science. Surprising! :D
Went bugis with shawn :D
He very very cuuute!
We shop until very siao. We're like mad dogs. Hehehes!
We ate sushi, while shawn was putting the soy sauce on the sushi-s.
He put until me hand ==
I went to toliet to wash and then when I came back.
Left 6 sushi-s -.-
It was fun being with him :D
Went wild wild wet with Jueyun and Yingshi(:!
Damn fun! I love them :D
I dun wan post le. But there's still alot things.
My audition got bug! D:
I wish my audition can play again. Without lag-ness! :D
Byeeeeee! (:
Withloves, Marcus :D
