Return me my melancholy soul.
31 October 2008
HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!Grandma's back from oversea !
Today spent 4 hours with Cathryn,ShinYin & Clarissa .
Actually the 4 hour is for the library CCA . Walao it sucks to the core.
Well we went to eat together.
After that we went to walk around the whole school,but first we put our bags at the library on second floor in our school . ==
Then,we went in the library,Clarissa told us some scary ghost stories ( i dun understand them )
We walk around the whole school then we spot a great place wheres no body around .
So we sang songs at the place very long with alot of pop songs.
Shinyin and Clarissa sang rock song while me and cathryn sang love songs ( WE SANG HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL DE )
After that we went to the playground and play crocodile,haha shin keep being catcher.
Later than we went to the library again to play something and saw Aunty Grace,she chatted with us and even bought us drinks ( COKE !!! )
Well,we must wait aunty grace to buy finish,so we waited in our school staircase and create song . THE SONG IS CALLEDD WHY I HATE CHINESE .
LOL actually it nice ( Rap ) but the middle part is me singing must do high pich ==.
Aunty grace's back !
We drank the cokes .
Then shinyin got alot of empty cans from aunty grace .
I carried it to shinyin's taxi LOL !
Then we all departed and say good bye ( dont wanna say goodbye wan holiday will miss them and all my friends )
Goodbye my besties !
The very song I'm currently obsessed with, Stranger, is totally right. I kept looping it. I can very much relate to it cuz it simply summarise everything I wanted to tell everyone.
Heees. Its still ringing over and over again in my ears like nobody's business.
Each time it passes the part I can relate to most,
"There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell what's going on this time,
There's a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too.."my brains will automatically rewind itself to the past. Yeah, my brains have a mind of its own even without me.
They didn't believe me when I told them so. If they could see you the way I do, the way you portrayed yourself in front of me, they will believe every of my words. But they can't cuz they aren't me.
Yadda, yadda, yadda.
Well, well, well, why don't I forget everything this instant and this minute? Why the eff am I even dwelling on it for like ever?
Gosh. I needa get a life. Seriously.
Alright,
Life's kinda meaningless nowadays. Whatever I'm doing nowadays is slack, shop, chat, write, read, sleep and eat. I hardly did anything productive at all. No, nothing, nadda.
The only thing I'm pretty glad of is that i pass english overall and chinese got 1st or 2nd in class.
Bad news : Well i found out i pass 2 and fail maths ): .
Note 1 : still dunno science marks hope i at least pass .
Sometimes I kinda neglect my loved ones when I'm dying of depression. No, not the illness "depression". Its just that I'm rather depressed nowadays over absolutely nothing at all.
Whatever.
Actually it isn't nothing. Well, it is. But how do I phrase it? It isn't NOTHING to me. It is EVERYTHING. But, its really NOTHING to them.
They didn't care, friends didn't care, perhaps, I shouldn't too.
The saddest thing is, I did. WTF. Am I abnormal or am I adnormal? Lmao.
Gosh, baobeis, you've cornered me and drove me to my witends. C'mon, its already passed ending time. So, why am I still dwelling on it? Sigh.
Let's think of it in a more optimistic way as my blog's heading is apparently "MARCUS, the optimist in the pessimist". You can see it yourself with your big bright eyes, am I right or am I wrong?
Wait, what's so optimistic about falling out of love anyway?
LOLS.
Forget it, luv. I can't be bothered to use my OH-SO-SMART brains in this kinda pointless stuffs anyway. Wth. ZZZ.
What's so wrong with me?
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Next topic :
Its kinda funny when you let yourself believe that fairytales could actually happen in reality and eventually wake up one day laughing at your own stupidity for allowing yourself to fall into the trap that they laid there sweetly just for you.
Gosh, life's somewhat meaningless without someone to fall head over heels in love with. Heees, perhaps its time that I find a replacement can..
Just kidding.
Guess what? I am still stucked in my schooling mode. Its ridiculously hard to believe as the vacations had started like million years ago(exaggerating) but its 100% true. Gosh, didn't realised I'm a procrastinator for real. Don't laugh.
Never mind! I shall will myself to switch into holiday mode next week, I swear.
Firstly, I'm gonna make sure my pathetic cellphone isn't lack of whatever its lacking now. Money, to be exact. Yeah, I'm stucked with prepaid still. Extremely pathetic. O:
That's all for today, darlings.
